Watch Out There’s a Trannie About
I’ve surprised myself on two counts this week.
First, I’ve let a local guy know what I get up to, not a friend as yet but someone I’ve known for a long time.
Secondly, I’m having a local makeup consultant come round to my house to sort out my eyebrows and one or two other things.
Two weeks ago I wouldn’t have dreamt of doing what I’ve just done. But there is a reason, isn’t there always?
I’ve been getting restless about this notion that I have to creep around locally so muggles don’t know I exist. It’s this same restlessness that’s making it more irksome for me to keep hiding the fact from my daughters that I go out in a frock occasionally.
But sorting out my look has had a profound effect on my outlook. Because I’m feeling so good about it I don’t feel embarrassed about letting people know who this Rachel person is.
Now, touch wood, I’ve had very positive reactions all round. The makeup consultant even commented on my geat bone structure. And whilst I gave her a get out clause - “If you don’t wish to deal with me I won’t expect a reply” her comment was that she embraced diversity and personal preferences and would love to help out, and would totally guarantee absolute discretion. Does it get any better than that?
Because, in my heart of hearts, I believe my daughters wouldn’t have a problem with Rachel I’ve been getting more relaxed about them seeing my shaved areas you know legs chest and arms.
And I’ve even been working on resizing the photoshoot images whilst my eldest came into my office and she never said a word. Of course, I don’t know if she saw the photos or not but I’m guessing she just didn’t twig. But I guess this is all part of me wanting them to know so I don’t have to make excuses for staying away overnight when I go to events like BNO. It just doesn’t seem right, somehow.
So, in the main, I’m feeling very positive about the way things are right now and I’ll let you know how things go with the makeup consultant. :)
on February 8th, 2008 at 5:58 am
Rachel I am impressed with your honesty about the ins and outs of your tgirl life. As you know I am already very impressed with your beauty. But I am equally impressed with your introspection and intelligence. I don’t know how I would tell anyone about this particular part of my life outside of my Flickr friends. What I find fascinating is how being a girl takes lots of time, energy, money and focus. I’ve dipped into this life in the past and now have really jumped into it and it becomes very consuming. Gee, all I can say is keep being strong, be yourself and do what is right for you.
Hugs,
Aoife
on February 8th, 2008 at 10:19 am
TBH Aoife it’s only since the Internet came about and with it the ability to bounce ideas and feelings off others that I feel I’ve progressed. It’s an ongoing journey and I’m not quite sure where it will end, but I’m enjoying it.
Update: Seeing the makeup consultant a week Monday.
Off to BNO shortly.
on February 8th, 2008 at 9:10 pm
Part of the downside to being a tranny is the secrecy. It’s not a major hassle but it can get a bit tiresome. After all, you are shutting people out of a part of your life, indeed you might say from a large part of your life. It’s a difficult decision to make I feel. Would people be better off if they knew?
In the past I’ve been asked: “You look chuffed. Good night out?” With my wife I can be honest and let her know but to my mates, well, that’s another story. I think after some initial p*ss taking, I think it would be yesterday’s news.
> Does it get any better than that?
Only if she forgets to charge you. :-)
on February 12th, 2008 at 12:07 pm
I would like to think that there will come a time in this world where we can all be ourselves and get on about the business of stopping things like Darfur…
I’d like to hope I’ll live to see it!
alan