TV Dreams

Yeah, I know, I’ve been here before, remember? I changed my name to Morgan and then hastily reverted to Rachel. Reason being it felt so strange to have a new name after all these years.

This time, however, it’s been thought through and I have specific reasons for wanting to make the change.

I know some tgirls see themselves as having two separate personnas, and of course having a femme name makes complete sense, but having been there and done that I’ve found that for quite some time I’ve regarded Richard and Rachel as one and the same. There’s no changing my mannerisms or voice to adopt a more girly demeanour. I’m just me, but with a different set of clothes and make-up and a wig.

So, I’ve decided a unisex name is what I want. Hence Alex. The surname, Kingsley, has a history, but I’m skipping over that. Later, depending on circumstances, I may change my name by deed poll, but that won’t happen (if at all) for another 2/3 years minimum. And no, this has nothing to do with thinking I may be TS. If you have to stick a label on me it would be gender queer or TV - even though I don’t agree with the dictionary definition of the term transvestite.

All this is more to do with aligning my male/female traits thus recognising I’m one and the same - Alex, regardless of what I’m wearing.

Now this, dear reader, may seem weird for you if you know me, but trust me, it’s even weirder for me, so please bear with me on this, and thanks for your patience. :)

Alex Kingsley

As much as this may annoy Jo of “Checklist Paranoia” fame (only kidding Jo) I do feel I’ve ticked another box.

In truth, this was never an aim of mine: To tell one’s eldest sister. To get things into perspective, she’s considerably older than me - I have to say this to make myself look younger - just retired in fact, allbeit earlyish retirement [keep digging].

Anyway, deliberately keeping some of the details and background leading up to my revalation from you dear reader, I phoned my sis yesterday and asked if I could come see her immediately. She agreed.

During the 124 mile journey I went over and over in my mind what I was going to say. I developed a very quirky timeline of factors and events, some of which were not connected with my transvestism, but necessary for her to get the whole plot.

I have to admit to not knowing what her reaction would be - she has some quite traditional views, so I wasn’t sure how she’d take to the news. Yet another anti-climax. In that this is the third or fourth time I’ve told someone and yet again the reaction was it’s your life, no worries, and no I didn’t have a clue.

She’s totally supportive, has now told her husband whose fine with it too. In fact, on the subject of telling my two girls, they’ve both agreed I should do so. Not only that, my sister’s husband has suggested what my sister and I consider to be a better plan. And this is knowing that my wife disagrees with telling the girls. As they said, she’s not always right.

I have another sister and brother-in-law in New Zealand, who again, I want to tell face-to-face so it’s been agreed that eldest sister and husband won’t say anything to anyone until I get my opportunity. And no, it’s not an excuse for a holiday, I just feel I must be there when they get to know. No hiding behind Skype!

I’m not intending leaving it too long before I speak to my eldest daughter, so wish me luck!

Justin Bond, famous for Kiki & Herb and his role as himself in Shortbus (2006) has three more days to go at the Soho Theatre, 21 Dean Street, London in his show, Lustre.

Call me sheltered, but I’d never heard of Justin before, so when I came across Karol Cross’ blog post this morning raving about how good the show was I decided to read a few reviews, although Karol had said they didn’t do him justice.

If I could go I would have, but sadly with such short notice and other committments it ain’t going to happen, so I thought I’d flag it up here. Tickets are £17.50, so really cheap for a West End Show.

If you do get the opportunity to get some tickets please do come back and leave your thoughts in the comments - thanks.

Yes scary, I know. But what can I do, I’m a trannie - it’s a well-documented defence. Same old, same old but take a look if you want to…

A few years ago now I cobbled together a guestbook script. It got spammed to death so I added anti-spam code. And finally when I changed the whole site over to WordPress I dumped it.

So now, in an uncharacteristic fit of enthusiasm, I’ve added a guestbook plugin and voila, here it is.

It needs customising, so give me a break and I’ll get round to it , probably one weekend. Anyway, it’s a start.

Now, about that feedback form…